Never enough

Do you ever feel like something is never enough? One day you think you're on the right path and everything is going great, and the next you find yourself searching the Internet and the yellow pages for more.

Today, I feel like I could be doing so much more for Wes. I feel like the time he's not in school is wasted because we aren't doing something therapy related. I work with him at home and incorporate learning into everything we do, but is that enough? I've taken him to every specialist recommended, but is that enough? He's making wonderful progress, but could he be making more?

There aren't that many resources here and some of the routes others have taken don't work for our family. But then the guilt kicks in. Should we bite the bullet, rearrange our finances and do the Gluten Free Casein free diets? I'm extremely worried about giving him all these vitamins and minerals that are supposed to help, but what if they do? What if we're missing out on something? What if a DAN (Defeat Autism Now) doctor really could help Wesley?

I could go on and on forever about this. It comes down to, Is what I'm doing now enough for him? Am I making the right choices or am I ignoring things right in front of my face? God, this parenting crap is hard!